Aku; Jadual. Enjoy. Sakit. Sekolah.

Assalammualaikum.

Allahu Akbar. :) Hehe. Pagi tadi check facebook. Okay ktorg punya jadual final dirombak. Exam postpone Jumaat minggu depan. Tak tahu nak happy ke tak. Tapi rasanya tak lah kot. Sebab minggu ke-2 exam nanti aku ada 4 paper dalam masa seminggu tuh. Aigooo

Anyway semalam ktorg buat unplanned plan. Ktrog g pest Penang. Okay lah. Berenjoy-enjoyan. Padahal nak exam tuh. So for the first time aku g fun fair. Dan for the first time aku naik benda yg swing2 tu. *Serius tak tahu apa benda, google pun tak dpt jumpa*. Huuuu scary ohh. Jantung rasa nk tercabut je. Well I have fun on that day. Even sekejap, at least enjoy.

Dan seperti semalam aku pergi library. Waktu petang tu. Tatkala aku nak stretching badan aku, aku rasa tengkuk aku sakit. Aku tak sure sbb study tunduk sgt atau aku salah tidur semalam. YaAllah. Hmmm ada petanda tak kasi aku study kat library ni.

Pastu aku take 5 jap. *Well it was not exactly 5*. Tengok gmbr2 kat laptop. Tengok gmbr kawan2 lama. Sekolah. Matrik. Huhu. Aku rasa semua org syg sekolah dorg lebih sikit dari zaman2 yg lain. Sebab time tu kita dah mula nak remaja. Bak kata org skrg BBNU (Budak baru nak up) Haha. Aku mula lah rindu kat sekolah. Sebab banyak sgt memori. Banyak sgt benda..

Bila dah habis sekolah ni. Bila org tanya aku dari sekolah mana dan aku beri jawapan, the top 3 responds from them were;

1) Wahhh sekolah top tuh

2) Mesti ramai lesbian kan?

3) Sekolah perempuan mesti kerek.

Hehe. Kadang2 aku senyum je. Mungkin dah biasa sgt dengar respond mcm tu. Tapi aku tak pernah malu atau rasa berlagak nk cakap aku sekolah mana. Even aku sekolah rendah kat kampung pun aku cakap. Sebab sekolah tu tempat di mana kita belajar about life. Sekolah Seri Puteri. Even org nak kata apa pun, katalah. Nak kutuk ke nak puji ke. Cakap lah. Sebab bukan popularity or pandangan org yg ktotg cari. We are just same like you. Love our school because it it our school.

Okaylah ni saje2 je post citer ni. Tengah sakit tengkuk. Doakan aku sihat nak exam. And semangat selalu okay. Fighting. Salam.

 

Hello school I miss you. 

Love.

Half maturity.

Assalammualaikum. Jeng jenjeng. Wahhh semangat aku sapu2 blog aku siap dgn hiasan terbaru lagi. Puas betul hati tgk blog dah cantik. Cantik ker?

 Huhu. Well I'm having my final exam within a week. YaAllah cepat sgt sem ni habis compare to sem yg sebelum ni. Haish rasa nya dah banyak kali dlm hidup aku cakap cepatnya masa berlalu. Okay regarding the title. Actually something tak adalah apa sgt. Just about my life. Before ni aku fikir kalau dah graduate nanti *InsyaAllah. Amin. Amin. Amin* aku nak terus kerja je. Tak mau lah nak smbung degree ke hape. Just kerja kat hospital for the rest on my life.

 But....

Tibanya hari di mana aku sedar yang masa kecik dulu aku bukan org yg mcm ni. Bukan seorg yg letak limit dalam life. Abah selalu cakap. "Jannah dulu masa kecik, kau nak benda mesti nak. Nak jugak. Nak jugak." Hehe. Kelakar. But later when I entered SSP, bila dah jumpa dunia sebenar yang mana banyak budak2 pandai. Aku dah mula under-estimated my self. .But it doesn't mean I didn't thankful to be there. At least dekat SSP aku jumpa orang2 yang menjadi orang2 terpenting dalam life aku. Alhamdulillah for that. Masuk matrik. Even dah 5 tahun aku duduk asrama but I think matrik was the place where I learnt to become survival and a little bit matured. And I made some great friends too. Alhamdulillah again. Dan skrg masuk Aimst. Dikelilingi budak2 cina. Aku makin under-under-estimated myself. Aim hanya lah untuk pass all the paper.

Then..aku sedar.

That is not the purpose of your life. Tak kisah berapa juta org yg pandai2 ada kat depan korg. Tak kisah berapa byk kali korg terjatuh or akan jatuh. Just pursue your dreams. Sekarang aku dah mula melukis-lukis masa hadapan aku. Even aku tahu tak semestinya akan tercapai but sekurang-kurang aku berusaha. InsyaAllah tengoklah keadaan aku masa tu. Dan kalau Allah izinkan. Lepas two years of compulsory years, aku nak smbg master in Pharmacy and then PhD. Dan insyaAllah kalau diberi rezeki aku nak kerja dekat Pharmaceutical insdustry. Nak cari experiences. Aminn. Aku tahu dengan lambakan org2 pandai sekarang mungkin agak susah aku nak menonjol. Tapi aku rasa attitude will bring me further.

Semua ni based on rezeki dan keadaan. Kalau tak tercapai pun tak apa. Allah maha Mengetahui. :)

Even aku rasa part tu bagi something what we called maturity. Tapi ada part dalam diri aku tak matured. Masa the last day of my class hari tu. Aku down gila. Memang bergenang je airmata. Yes I always have this-kind-of- unknown-syndrome. Sedih without a reason. Ingat nak call mak ke family. But I guess dorg dah lali dengan aku yg macam tu. Aku takut apa yang dorg cakap buat aku rasa lagi down. Dan aku rasa it is not the best choice. Alhamdullilah I have a friend to turn to. Nasihat yg dibagi betul2 buat diri semangat balik. Thanks Nahdatul Aishah Mohd. Sharif.

Yups I hope the day will come sooner for me to become fully matured person about this life. About everything. Because through maturity I will appreciate something more. And through maturity I can become a positive person.

And for that I prayed to Allah to let me become a matured person. And to become that I know I should be a better muslimah first. Please pray for me peeps.

 Aminnn. Till fingers meet the keyboard again. Assalammualaikum.

  I found this cute sleepy kitten. Comel! :D

Are you okay Gen?

"Mintak ampun banyak2 dekat Allah, orang yang mintak ampun adalah orang2 yang beruntung. Ingat tu."- (Emak,2012). :'( Aku adalah budak yang call emak setiap hari. Yea! Setiap hari, bila tak ada kredit mintak kat Abah. Haha. Rasanya alasannya adalah sebab I need someone to talk. And Emak is the best choice. Hmm. Semlm call mak tak dapat, pastu tadi mak call. Borak2 pasal miaw, pasal Wadiah yg tengah exam. And tiba2 rasa sedih. Homesick ke? Entah rasa macam tiba2 je nak sedih. Boleh macam tu? Aku malas nak tulis banyak2. Bye-bye. Assalammualaikum

Always be in my heart.

Bagi aku dalam byk2 cartoon Tarzan lah yang ada true and pure love ever. Love from a mom. I love Tarzan! You'll always be in my heart!

On my way.

Hehe. Tengah hari nanti aku nk g KL. Sebab nak jemput Kaklong kat KLIA. Excited nak g travel. Nasib baik Dba ikut sekali. Tak lah aku lost kat tempat org tu. Hehe. See you in time Kaklong. May Allah ease your,mak abah and me punya journey. Hehe. Assalammualaikum. ;)

100th Posts. :) The Lovey Dovey.

Assalammualaikum.

Wah dah seratus post aku kat blog ni. Entah apa lah yg aku merepek2. Well today dah Jumaat. I don't know..Tapi lately aku rasa sangat dan amat cepat berlalu. Rasa mcm baru ju cakap.."Malasnya esok dah Isnin" hari Ahad haritu tup tap tup tap dah Jumaat. Well lagi dua minggu nak study week for CA and dua minggu jugak Kaklong nak balik. And Emak was so excited. Dia kata dulu membilang tahun tunggu sekarang membilang hari je. May Allah ease all. Haaa. Semalam aku godek2 youtube sekali aku dengar lah lagu2 T-ara..memandangkan dorg baru buat concert ktMalaysia semalam. Lepas tu aku terus addicted dgn lagu Lovey Dovey. Kyaaa smart giloss dorg shuffle. And the song pun best jugakkk. :D

I'm a fan of T-ara now. Yeay ;)

Suka!

Aku suka bila mak call pastu citer pasan Neo Noa. Especially Neo yg suka nak manja2 dengan mak. Arghhh Kawaiiiii!

Powerful Du'a that I need the most.

Salam.

Baru call mak tadi. Lepas dah borak2 tu. Aku cakap dekat mak doakan aku rajin2 belajar, cemerlang and tak rasa sunyi kat sini. And suddenly air mata pun mengalir. Bila kita dah keep it too long..itulah jadinya. I hate to hold my voice in that situation. Rasa macam nak ceritaaa semua benda. Tapi aku tak boleh. Sebab kalau aku buat mcm tu sure mak akan susah hati. So better I keep it. Sebab esok lusa rasa ni akan hilang jugak. Tapi susah hati seorang ibu bukan senang nak hilang. Kan? And now aku pun rasa dah okay sikit. Goodluck Jannah. Fighting okay!

Ps; Doakan aku okay! :) May Allah bless us.




Sometimes it is okay to let yourself crying.
It's okay.

Fighting Jannah!

A lonely road.

Salam.

Hi. First of all if ever you finish reading this please pretend that you didn't read it at all.

Sebab kisahnya masih sama. Perasaan nya pun masih sama. Although there are million times I've told myself to be okay,to be strong,to be thankful. But after all I 'm just a human.

Entahlah. Aku rasa mungkin ada mana2 dalam solat atau ibadah aku tak lengkap atau tak ikhlas 

sampai aku rasa macam ni. Aku rasa lonely. Bukan alone tapi lonely. Arghhh that kind of feeling is killing me. Ada dekat Aimst is not the reason. Feeling ni since sekolah menengah aku rasa. 

I dream a life full of positive people around me. I want to be happy with my life. I want to be ikhlas as much as I want in my life. Tapi kenapa aku rasa macam ni.?I kknow  I can't have that kind of people to be there with me 24/7. I know after sometime this feeling will go. But for time being let me go along with this feeling. Maafkan aku yaAllah.

This kind of feeling ------> IMMUNE

Alhamdulillah I've registered for Bachelor of Pharmacy Third Year. How fast time flies. But ada pending 300 ringgit lagi. But never mind tomorrow insyaAllah I'll settle it. So,for the first day of the semester was quite okay. Sebab tak belajar lagi. And I got new roomate. Hmm. Tak ada mood nak cerita pasal tu lagi. Just wait. So dinner today aku pergi makan sorg diri. Memandangkan kawan Biotech belum balik tapi tak sure kalau dorg balik aku makan dgn dorg ke tak. Let it be. Well masa makan tu, I don't felt awkward ke lonely ke apa. Aku rasa kosong, heartless..haaa cenggitu lah. Well I guess that is what IMMUNE feeling is. After 2 years, I should be much more stronger. InsyaAllah aku akan terus bersabar dan berjuang. Kau bantulah hamba-Mu yaAllah. Please pray for me okay! Yoshaaa. Salam.

    "Put your faith in what you most believe in"

- Two Worlds One Family,Tarzan

I love this scene. I love Tarzan Disney Movie.

So cuteeeeee. :)