Well, I'm back again.
Because I have no one to pour out my feelings.
Actually there were numerous times that I planned to write here.
But I end up ignore my own feeling and find any distractions.
A lot of things had happened.
I'm back to my hometown here at Batu Pahat.
Ended my wonderful journey in Tawau Sabah.
Well, thats it.
I hope I can talk more about in my future post.
But today I wanted to talk about my mom and her feelings.
It had been love-and-hate relationship with emak since I got home.
Don't want to defend myself because definitely I made mistakes to.
Most of the time.
I dont know what I can do to make her happy.
She's seems to be on her own bubbles.
And today she posted something on whatsapp group
:(
I was in the room when she shared this.
After I read it, I came to her.
To talk about it.
I feel responsible to at least hear what she wanted to say.
Because right now, I am the only child here with her.
We only each other.
But when I saw her eyes started getting teary.
I slowly walked away, didn't offered any words of comfort to her.
I don't know.
I can't do it. I felt awkward.
No good with words. Be it an action.
So, mak I just hope that you know that I care about your feeling.
I hope you know it.
With my simplest gesture of coming to you and asked about it.
Sorry.
23 March 2021
10 Syaaban 1442H
9.29 pm
Peserai, Batu Pahat Johor.
