Monday, September 3, 2012

This kind of feeling ------> IMMUNE



Alhamdulillah I've registered for Bachelor of Pharmacy Third Year. How fast time flies. But ada pending 300 ringgit lagi. But never mind tomorrow insyaAllah I'll settle it. So,for the first day of the semester was quite okay. Sebab tak belajar lagi. And I got new roomate. Hmm. Tak ada mood nak cerita pasal tu lagi. Just wait. So dinner today aku pergi makan sorg diri. Memandangkan kawan Biotech belum balik tapi tak sure kalau dorg balik aku makan dgn dorg ke tak. Let it be. Well masa makan tu, I don't felt awkward ke lonely ke apa. Aku rasa kosong, heartless..haaa cenggitu lah. Well I guess that is what IMMUNE feeling is. After 2 years, I should be much more stronger. InsyaAllah aku akan terus bersabar dan berjuang. Kau bantulah hamba-Mu yaAllah. Please pray for me okay! Yoshaaa. Salam.




    "Put your faith in what you most believe in"
- Two Worlds One Family,Tarzan

I love this scene. I love Tarzan Disney Movie.
So cuteeeeee. :)
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Friday, August 31, 2012

My respect to her keep on growing :)

Assalammualaikum. Loooongggggggg time no see. Haha. Last post aku pasal aku nak naik Semester 4 and now aku nak naik Semester 5 and soon I'll be known as Pelajar Farmasi Tahun 3. *Kelasss kau jah*. Hehe. Reason update kat blog sbb aku dah tutup twitter. Dah tak ada tempat nak merepek. So here I am. Well lusa I'm going back to Aimst. YaAllah malas yg amat. And tadi baru aku dpt results sem lepas. Alahamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah aku pass semua papers. Actually aku cuak dengan paper Pharmaco but again Alhamdulillah aku pass. Bersyukur sangat. :') Okay regarding the title of this post..aku tujukan kepada my one and only kakak..Kaklong. Okay Oktober ni dia dah nak balik Malaysia. And tak lama lagi insyaAllah she'll be a doctor. And I just read her blog. Well I'm so impressed. Belum pun balik Malaysia dia dah tetap kan aim dia for future. To be a good doctor, and her planning to futher her studies after HO in surgery. WOW. Bila compare dgn aku..target aku just nak habis and pass semua exam..then kerja. Aku sangat respect and of course inspired! Nak naik sem baru ni semangat berkobar2. Well I hope dengan sem baru ni aku pun jadi orang yang baru.. To be a better person. Dan menjadi seseorang yang bermatlamat. Yes I should. Thanks Kaklomg for inspiring even you are not realizing it. :) Salam.
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Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Another Beginning.

Assalammualaikum.Huhu it had been agess I didn't write. Malas is the reasons. I already registered for Semester 4 few hours back. Alhamdulillah another beginning dah mula. Results belum dpt lagi. Mudah mudahan everything okay. So just now baru dpt schedule for this sem..I already knew it's going to be hectic but when I saw the schedule rasa macam...ADOIIIIIIIIIII. Have a look..yang di highlight tuh..



Nampak tak? Tak nampak buat2 nampak jelahh. Yeah it's look so stressful. Scary.. but never mind. I have plenty of time. And now is the beginning of the time. I pray may Allah help me to have a good time management, emotional and life.. Almost half of my journey has already done. I should work hard. Gambateh Jannah.Yoshaaaa.

ps; I don't know if I have another time to write again in this very pack semester. But insyaAllah if I have time I will. Pray for me people. :)

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Aku dan Bintang.

10th December 2011 memories.;)

Salam. I didn't know how to start. Okay semua org tahu yg today ada gerhana bulan. At first aku tak nk tgk sbb mungkin tgh period so mood mcm tak okay. Tapi bila ramai sgt post psl gerhana,hati aku tergerak nak tgk. Aku ajak Dba. Tgh borak2..tiba2 mata ni ter'capture' tahi bintang. Subhanallah. Aku tak sangka aku diberi peluang kedua tgk tahi bintang.First time tgk time F5 waktu fire drill kat sekolah.Too bad I didn't noted the date dulu.nevermind.Teruja sgt tadi,smpi terus call abah. That all what I can say. Aku happy. and aku hope ada lagi peluang ketiga, keempat dan byk lagi utk aku tgk tahi bintang.


Sunday, December 4, 2011

Ombak Rindu.

Salam. 2nd Dec haritu aku tgk Ombak Rindu. Mula2 rasa mcm janggal gak tgk citer jiwang kt cinema..but at the end what I can say.It is worth to watch.Seriously..And the killing factor in this movie is Aaron Aziz's tears.Huh..Real ouh airmata dia..Bergenang je time blakon tu. Thumbs up to both Maya Karin and Aaron Aziz.

Ps; Aku suka sgt OST movie ni esp. lagu Untuk Kamu.:')





Semalam Abah Aerzee meninggal.Inalillah. I hope she'll be strong. And stay strong. Aku tak tahu nak buat apa sbb aku rasa ni bukan siapa2.Hmm. Whatever it is I hope Allah will help her to face this world.Amin.

Aku nak exam. And I feel so much pressure sometimes. Please Allah help me. I know I've done so much sins. But please lead my way to You :( Hwaiting Jannah.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Mencari jiwa.


Salam. Today dah 1st December..6 Dec ni aku dah start final paper. Preparation? Entah aku pun tak tahu mcm mana progress aku. Sbb hari2 aku revise dan hari2 jugak aku me'lagha'.Normal lah being student..cenggitu jugak jadinya. Seminggu masa for study week..and it's kinda very bored. YaAllah aku bosan sangat. And I hope at least I have someone to share this feeling. Tapi end up aku ber'emo'an sendiri. Selalu macam tu. Ada masa aku
rasa lifeless gila hidup kat sini. Seriously. Tapi lifeless macam mana pun, aku dah nak habis dah sem 3 ni. Next January dah nak naik sem 4 dah pun. Almost half-way dah perjalanan aku.Huh. Ada masa aku nak cerita semua benda, rasa nak nangis seboleh mungkin kat siapa2. Tapi bila aku jumpa org, aku automatically hide that feeling. It's naturally happens. Entahlahh. Aku berharap in future aku boleh jumpa siapa2 yang boleh faham apa yang aku rasa without telling them any. Bolah ke kita nak org faham apa yang kita rasa,tapi kita tak cerita apa masalah kita. Ouh no. I'm too too too complicated. Please people, doakan aku boleh jawab exams dgn cemerlang. InsyaAllah.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Will everything be okay?Will my heart be back to normal?

Salam..
Long enough I didn't write..and today the feeling comes. Sebab apa nak tulis.? Sebab tgh emo. Well this is me..I didn't like to share or tell others what is my feeling though I really really really need someone to talk to. Things going very wrong lately. No no it not the situation, environment or friends. It's about my feeling. Sometimes I can cry even there is no one hurting me. I'm too fragile though there nothing can break me. Yes I'm the one that hurt myself and I'm the one that make everything very hard to handle. I'm the one that should be blamed. Hahaha. and this evening I read through the newspaper. Something about kemurungan. And yes I think I need to meet psychiatrist. But will everything will be okay later on.? Will all this sorrow-feeling fade away.? Will my heart be back to normal again?. There's a lot more question that keep questioning in my mind. But hope one day Allah will show me the way. Take away all of this feelings.  Whatever it is thank you YaAllah. I know You gave me this to make me more stronger. Dan selayaknya seorang hamba itu diuji.:D




ps; To Isha thanks a lot for unintentionally lend your ears to me. Thankss. I really mean this.:')

Mak just called me back..and controlling voice while tears are dropping is so hard. I wondering if she knows that I'm crying.."Mom knows EVERYTHING" :'(








Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Tentang Sesuatu..




Booooo.Halloo people.

Well hey..Salam. It had been a long time right. ?Nak kata busy gila tak lahh. Senang cerita malas sebab tu tak ter'update' blog ni. So I do some changes in this blog. Well time flew very fast,tiba2 je dah nak mid term next week. To be true this sem tak heavy sangat mcm Year1Sem2 dulu. Alhamdulillah everything goes well and hope it'll be always well towards the end. Banyak sangat cerita yang terjadi. Nak semua cerita kat sini memang tak lahh. So let me highlight what are some important things happened.

Abah dah pencen.weheee. This should be the highlight story of the year. Almost 30 years Abah worked there..Kampung Padang Lebar. And now we'll leaving that place. Memorable place. Mula-mula tak rasa sangat lah nak pindah tu. Sebab aku pun dari form one dah start jauh dari rumah. And I thought it'll be easy for me to leave. But on the day Abah dah pencen all the memories haunted back. I know if it is hard for me it'll be harder for Abah to leave. Macam-macam lah fikir time too. And above all memories, aku paling teringat2 waktu ktorg pergi Bahau (on that time that place so called like heaven to us.haha). Teringat pergi Upwell,Kimma, etc. excited gila.And now that place will be so missed. Even dah lama company2 tu bankrupt and tutup tapi on the day Abah pencen those places are well remembered :(. Sekarang kat Batu Pahat even ada Carrefour,Summit BP Mall tapi the feeling we went to Upwell will never be the same. I'll keep those feeling in my heart. Apart from that,kenangan BCA 108..that was more memorable. Tanpa dia ktrong tak mampu nak pergi Bahau. haha. Jangan main2 that BCA 108 tulahh yang hantar aku ke Cyberjaya. Thanks BCA 108,you help us a lot. Thank You is not enough to say how much we appreciated you *even kadang2 malu juga naik kereta tu*.  But somehow no matter how much we tried to tie our mind with "Hargailahh apa yang ada sekarang,nanti bila dah tak ada baru nk menyesal" But still we neglected all of those things.And I'm that kind of people. But past days should never be regretted. Huhu. Sayonara Precious Memories. You will always remain in our heart :')

The next thing is exam.I don't have much to say because I'm still working on it. Aja2!! I don't want to disappoint others. InsyaAllah. Right now i'm facing syndrome bosan yaa amaat. rasa mcm nak ketuk2 benda nak hempas2 benda supaya ringan sikit.

( boleh tak macam ni? )

But bila ada rasa2 mcm ni mesti teringat dekat mak. Aku cerita jugak kat mak now bored my life is..then she said,"Mak faham tapi mak tak boleh nak buat apa2.Jannah sabarlah.Setiap kali rasa bosan cuba jannah fikirkan masa depan.Semua ni untuk masa depan. Dan mintak tolong dekat Allah," And yes her magical words enlighten me..even it's not completely vanish all my bored-feeling. Tapi at least I have something to hold to. And a reason to keep me strong.Always. This is the answer for whom that asked me "Gen kau tak boring ke duduk sini." Well I have my own antibodies and now I'm immune to it.

*Future,future,future*
(though we'll never know what happens in the future but there is still hope that keep us believe)


I currently love this picture. *sampai terus buat  background kat desktop.* It's so calm and comfort. I know it's just a ordinary photo. But I love it..very much indeed.:)
( Cantik kan?)


And last but not least there something happen to me. This is not new thing tapi entah lahh....
HAHAHAHA to me..;p

Thursday, September 8, 2011

maaf

aku ada satu perasaan.bila ada org need me time dia tgh sedih.aku akan turut rasa sedih.seolah2 aku dapat rasa bebanan tu. Dan baru tadi seorang kawan aku yg kehilangan kawan baik dan adik2 dia. 3 orang sekali msg.she need strength.YaAllah..aku dapat rasa itu.aku call dia.but aku tahu aku tak membantu.aku tahu.and i feel bad about this.so bad! :( Sorry nisak.



but too bad i can only listen without any helping.
:(
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Monday, September 5, 2011

War Within Myself


Alhamdulillah.

Selamat Hari Raya & Salam Merdeka.

Tak terlambat rasanya even aku dah start kuliah balik.hehe.
Before this ada banyak masalah membelenggu diri, tapi Alhamdullilah
Allah mengurniakan aku dengan keluarga yang hebat even most of the time
aku tak sependapat dgn mereka,
Sungguh pertembungan jiwa remaja dan alam dewasa sangat sukar bagiku.

Remaja; Nak amik engineering tp mak tak kasi
               Nak Iphone,phone aku kuno sangatlahh.
               Nak ada baju cantik2,aku ni nmpk selekeh
               Nak itu ,Nak ini.mak abah patut kasi. Sekarang dah moden.Tak salah aku rasa macam ni!

Ya itulahh jiwa keinginan aku sama seperti org2 lain.
Tapi sungguh ketika itu juga jiwa dewasa aku datang.dengan lebih rational.

Dewasa: Apa yang kita nak tak semestinya baik untuk kita and apa yg kita taknak tak semestinya                  
               buruk.
               Handphone tu kuno2 pun boleh lagi pakai.Bukan nak buat apa pun.Call family je dah cukup.
               Pakailah apa yang ada.dan bersyukur bersyukur dan bersyukurlah dengan apa yang kita ada.


Alhamdulillah mungkin berkat doa ibu,jiwa aku sudah mula menjadi dewasa. Memikirkan jika aku mahu mencapai semua keinginan jiwa remajaku aku harus menjadi dewasa. Dan semua itu akan tercapai jika aku ada pendapatan sendiri.
Dan mempunyai seorang sahabat yg tidak pernah melupakan.Aku sangat bersyukur untuk itu.Terima kasih Aida Adha.Walau selalu aku tak angkat call dia(bkn sengaja,duduk rumah aku mmg tak selalu ng phone).dia yang selalu bercerita. Walau sudah 3 tahun tak bersua. Selayaknya aku terus dilupakan.tapi Alhamdulillah aku tak ditinggalkan lagi.dan semua rakan2 yang aku tahu mereka takkan lupakan aku.*perasan!*

ouh yes entry ni macam entah apa2.tapi aku nak ingatkan diri untuk terus move on and cherish every single seconds of my life.

Thankyou MakAbahKaklongBangahYahEda. :)





( me too but life keep on moving and we should cherish the moments )

"Though I might not agree with her at the time, She's always right".-Justin Bieber to his mother.
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